It’s Just Me

I’ve been without medication for two weeks now. It hasn’t been horrible but it sure hasn’t been easy either. It was not my intent to go without medication but the doctors office and the pharmacy are having a battle of wills. He said, she said kind of deal. I don’t care who did or said what, just please get me my pills. I even offered to make an appointment or come pick up a new prescription whatever, I just need my meds please.

Finally today I was able to speak to people at each place and I might just get some pills tonight. The worst is yet to come. Coming off of my medication is never really that horrible but getting back on them is. So please have patience as I try to regain control of the balance I’ve had. If I get my pills tonight, the following week will be like extreme emotional volleyball. I’ll be up, down, sideways and I’ll feel like I’ve been punched in the head and gut.

The thoughts won’t be pretty and as hard as I’ll try I won’t be able to control my emotions. Someone is bound to get hurt… probably me.